I feel so sad.
24, Female from Southern California
I went on a couple of dates with this guy named Nick. He seemed pretty cool. He’s punk, rents his own house and adopted this pitbull mix. Last Saturday I went to his house and hung out. While we were hanging out I realized he was a person that I couldn’t be serious about (mostly because I just got out of a serious relationship and anything serious doesn’t sound appealing).
Anyways, I just wanted to enjoy myself. So we both got a little drunk and had sex. Throughout the night he kept telling how much he liked me and wanted to be with me. I was just like “uhhhh, yeah, me too!” (not really). Sort of like I said whatever cause I just wanted to get in his pants. We had a pretty fun night. The next morning he had work so I was at his house until he got back. It was a little weird when he got back because he wasn’t as social. I assumed it was just because we both got a few hours of sleep. Moving on, after I left, he never called or texted me.
At that point I couldn’t understand my feelings. I didn’t want anything real with this person, yet I yearned his attention. After a few days I texted him and asked him if he still liked me. Mind you, this guy would text every day, all day. Nope, no response. Throughout the week he sent me a couple of texts saying he was busy and at work. I never responded back to those vague texts until today. I told him to have a nice a life.
I’m just so perplexed by my feelings. I’m not sure if I’m sad because I’ll miss the attention. Or if I’m sad because I trusted him to not be a douchebag asshole. He could have at least gave me an explanation. I told myself I wont date anyone again for awhile. Until I learn how to be myself. But after that situation I just find it hard to pick out the real ones, from the douchebags!
I’m so happy right now! I started my period. That was a terrifying week! Phew. It’s amazing how accurate that menstruation app is on my phone. It’s been 100% accurate for over a year now. It’s also good to know that my cycle is normal. :D
My mom literally spends all day on Facebook or the Internet. I’d rather spend time with my bro and dad in the garage watching them fix cars. Annoying.
All of my goals that I’ve had for the past few years are actually coming true these past couple of months. If things go as planned I’m hoping to buy a car this weekend. I’m hoping to move out in 2-3 weeks.
Oh yeah, and I got promoted today to as a shift supervisor. :-)