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May 21

I went on a couple of dates with this guy named Nick. He seemed pretty cool. He’s punk, rents his own house and adopted this pitbull mix. Last Saturday I went to his house and hung out. While we were hanging out I realized he was a person that I couldn’t be serious about (mostly because I just got out of a serious relationship and anything serious doesn’t sound appealing).

Anyways, I just wanted to enjoy myself. So we both got a little drunk and had sex. Throughout the night he kept telling how much he liked me and wanted to be with me. I was just like “uhhhh, yeah, me too!” (not really). Sort of like I said whatever cause I just wanted to get in his pants. We had a pretty fun night. The next morning he had work so I was at his house until he got back. It was a little weird when he got back because he wasn’t as social. I assumed it was just because we both got a few hours of sleep. Moving on, after I left, he never called or texted me.

At that point I couldn’t understand my feelings. I didn’t want anything real with this person, yet I yearned his attention. After a few days I texted him and asked him if he still liked me. Mind you, this guy would text every day, all day. Nope, no response. Throughout the week he sent me a couple of texts saying he was busy and at work. I never responded back to those vague texts until today. I told him to have a nice a life.

I’m just so perplexed by my feelings. I’m not sure if I’m sad because I’ll miss the attention. Or if I’m sad because I trusted him to not be a douchebag asshole. He could have at least gave me an explanation. I told myself I wont date anyone again for awhile. Until I learn how to be myself. But after that situation I just find it hard to pick out the real ones, from the douchebags!

I’m so happy right now! I started my period. That was a terrifying week! Phew. It’s amazing how accurate that menstruation app is on my phone. It’s been 100% accurate for over a year now. It’s also good to know that my cycle is normal. :D

Apr 19

My mom literally spends all day on Facebook or the Internet. I’d rather spend time with my bro and dad in the garage watching them fix cars. Annoying.

Apr 15

All of my goals that I’ve had for the past few years are actually coming true these past couple of months. If things go as planned I’m hoping to buy a car this weekend. I’m hoping to move out in 2-3 weeks.

Oh yeah, and I got promoted today to as a shift supervisor. :-)

Apr 7

myampgoesto11:

Topographically accurate LED moon light by NOSIGNER

“The so called Supermoon – the lunar occurance on March 19th, 2011 in which the moon appeared 14% bigger and 30% brighter – shined down on the people of Japan, inspiring them to believe in, and have hope for, rebuilding what they had lost just over a week ago. The Moon is a topographically-accurate LED light that was created based on data retrieved from the Japanese lunar orbiter spacecraft Kaguya.”

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Apr 4

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Apr 3

sacraments:

Invitation to an Area night club party. The capsule was placed in water and the invitation appeared. Area was open from 1983 to 1987.

Mar 29

crookedindifference:

Alpha Centauri

(Unsuccessful) Plant Insemination Attempt (suspended by Nokia charger), 2013
Performance
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(Unsuccessful) Plant Insemination Attempt (suspended by Nokia charger), 2013

Performance

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Tehmina Durrani | The Woman Behind The Revolution [x]

Tehmina Durrani is a Pakistani author and activist. For 13 years, she was married to Ghulam Mustafa Khar, the former Governor of Punjab and one of the most powerful men in the country during the 70s and 80s. She chronicled her marriage in the 1991 book, My Feudal Lord, where she describes the abuse, torture, rape and humiliation she suffered at the hands of Khar.

She faced criticism not only for speaking out against Khar, but also for staying in the marriage for 13 years and having children with him. Reviews of the book to this day disparage her for not leaving sooner or seeking help or doing more to protect her children, despite Khar commanding tremendous power and influence. On page 156, she writes: “What could the police do? They would admonish Mustafa, but sooner or later I would be alone with him, in a worse predicament than before. My silence was not to protect Mustafa; it was to protect myself.”

In 1997, Ghulam Mustafa Khar’s son, Bilal, married a woman named Fakhra Yunus. She too suffered physical abuse at the hands of her husband and escaped after three years to return to her mother’s home. However, in April 2000, Bilal Khar tracked her down and threw acid in her face while she slept. After being released from the hospital, she returned to Bilal and reached out to Tehmina Durrani for help. Tehmina intervened and took Fakhra into her own house despite facing death threats from the Khar family.

Tehmina Durrani is now the author of several books and an activist for Pakistani women and rights of the poor. Her efforts to help Fakhra were detailed in a 2001 Time Magazine article entitled “The Evil That Men Do” which also contained this iconic graphic photograph of the two of them. Fakhra Younus committed suicide on March 17, 2012 at the age of 33. Bilal Khar was acquitted of all charges.

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24, Female from Southern California